Life

I feel like a spectator in my own life. I see my life go by and I barely have a role in it.

It’s like a play. The whole world is up there on stage while I’m sitting there as part of the audience. I feel like I don’t have control over my own life. It’s passing by so fast but I feel like I haven’t really done anything yet. It’s like I’m in a fast moving train to nowhere and I don’t know when or how to get off.

I also feel like everything around me has made me who I am. My parents, friends, society, the environment, etc. I wonder if I would still be the same person if I wasn’t influenced by them. That’s why I want to try living in a whole new environment different from what I have now. I’m pretty sure I won’t be the same person. And if that’s the case, are we really who we are? Or are we merely just adapting to the environment while our real is kept hidden?

Brain Drain

You know what I want? I want to experience brain trauma.

Not your ordinary kind of brain trauma that just involves bleeding and maybe possible death. No, I want the kind that gives you a special ability right after.

You’re all probably saying, what?

But it is possible though. I just saw National Geographic’s My Brilliant Brain and it showcased this man who had cerebral hemorrhage and was able to gain artistic abilities right after that incident.

I envy him. I also want to be artistic! I want my brain to be on autopilot and create ingenious artwork by itself. Sadly, my current brain isn’t capable of that.

Another reason is that I want to have a near-death experience. They say it changes your life. After having a little brush with death, maybe then will I start to LIVE.