Attitude

There’s a saying goes, “Treat people the way you want to be treated”. I’ve edited that version and came up with a similar one of my own. “I treat people the way they treat me”.

It’s amazing how easy it is for people to call out my faults when it’s so obvious they have that same fault. I only mirror the the kind of attitude that has been shown to me plus my own attitude which often, equals something worse. This happens when I feel like an attack has been done or when I feel like I’ve been insulted. I think that, somehow, I want to make the that person feel how the other end feels like.

Although if I’m treated with great kindness, I make sure to give something back in return. I’m in awe when I meet these people. It’s so rare to see kind people these days, especially sincere ones.  I have a lot of admiration for them that I also would like to change and be like them. I would try for maybe a couple of days but then, I’d revert back to my old self. It’s a hard feat in this world today. Kindness is met with abuse or manipulation. People seem to equate kindness with vulnerability. People just boss around the “underdog” because they think they can get away with it. Sometimes, they do get away with it. They suck the life out of the person that in the end, there would be no kindness left.

I guess I’m one of those people. I felt like all the kindness has been sucked out of me. Now, I have these walls around me to protect myself from all the manipulators. I have been used, ordered around and took crap from people. Never again.